So I’m at the 15 Items or Less line in the grocery store. Safeway to be exact. Checkstand #2 to be even more exact. I realize I’m standing behind my neighbor. He’s an old guy who I’ve seen several times around the neighborhood who always seems a little out of it and every time we meet, he has this glazed look on his face like he has no idea who the hell I am. So I decide not to embarass myself in front of everyone around me by saying hello and re-introducing myself for the umpteenth time only to be followed by little or no awkward conversation. And when I say he’s my neighbor, I mean that he LIVES NEXT DOOR TO ME and if he can’t be bothered to remember me, I can’t be bothered to be remembered.
He’s unloading his basket. And unloading. And unloading. I’m about to start counting his items to see if he’s over 15 (because I’m impatient and bored, and I needed to be needlessly riled up), but before I could count past three or so items, some lady with the telltale green apron and name tag says to me, “I can take you over here on Checkstand #1. So I saunter over to Checkstand #1.
Mid-saunter, I brush up against a tall stack of Entenmann‘s chocolate cakes, setting some of them askew. The man who has followed me to the newly opened Checkstand #1, wearing a business suit, helps me to straighten them out. I figure, we’ve worked together now, I should say something. Being the comedian I think I am, I say something like, “Boy, I almost went over the 15 item limit there – ha ha ha!”
He didn’t even acknowledge it. All I could hear were the crickets as I waited for the belly laughter from my audience of one. My invisible Critic From Hell swooped over and enveloped me with his black cape of comedy doom. Oh the horrors!
I suddenly felt very lonely as I was transported back to my youth and remembered when the self-labeled “cool kids” looked down their noses at me to make me feel like dirt, whenever I tried to be funny. They’d toss their perfectly feathered hair away from me as if I were some crass idiot. The snobs.
My freshman English teacher chastised me on paper when I wrote a silly essay, trying to turn a dull assignment into something fun. I was taught at an early age that writing is not fun. It is a chore to be taken very, very seriously. This isn’t a creative writing class, young lady.
So anyway this guy in the grocery store…it bugs me that this guy helps me with the boxes, leading me to believe that it was socially acceptable to speak to him, and then nothing? NOTHING? What the hell?
I walk out to the parking lot and drive home trying to figure out what went wrong:
Did he think I was some crazy lady who talks to strangers and would be waiting for him outside to ask him for money?
Did he not get the joke?
Did I misinterpret his trying to help me and instead it was just that he’s really anal and he couldn’t stand seeing the cake boxes askew and had to fix them immediately?
Maybe he didn’t even hear me, but was afraid to ask me what I said because then I might get all familiar on him and try to accost him outside for money. And what’s his problem always worrying about storefront panhandlers, anyway?
Or maybe the Grocery Karma God in the Sky was getting back at me for not saying hello to my neighbor. In fact I’m a total hypocrite for complaining about the guy behind me not working with me, when I can’t even say hello to a guy I share part of a roof with.
My book review for The Brightest Moon of the Century by Christopher Meeks has been published on Curled Up With a Good Book. You can read it HERE if you wish.
A big THANK YOU to Sherry of My Loonyverse for these two beauties!
